By Sister Janis Yaekel, ASC
I am Sister Janis Yaekel, ASC and I have pancreatic cancer. In fact, I have lived with cancer since 2012. I hope to share in my blog my journey and my reflections on the presence of God in my life. It is my hope that those who read my entries will find strength for their own journeys.
Today, as I sit by the computer, I find myself looking outside at a very cold winter landscape. The birds are eating and eating at the feeders. It is a hard time for the creatures of nature right now as they struggle to survive.
I must say that it is a hard time for me as well.
My physical condition is going downhill, and as I look to the year, 2018, I suspect that it will be my last. Part of me wants to continue living, while another part is beginning the “letting go” process. I do not know how much time I have, but I want to make the most of what is left.
“Dying is an interesting process.”
Dying is an interesting struggle and process. Sometimes, I find myself thinking a lot about the past, about my history. I find myself thinking of all the people who have been a part of my life. Other times, I find myself thinking about what this dying process will be like. At other times, I can be right in the present moment. I think those are the best of times.
I very much would love to be right in the moment when Jesus comes. I believe that the new life that I am heading into will be awesome.
I spend as much time up at my house with my friend, Sister Alan, although I do stay at the infirmary at night.
And, so, this New Year comes to us with many questions, hopes and longings.
I pray that everyone will have a great 2018 and that the essential dreams of your life will find fulfillment. Let us keep each other in prayer.